Who knew celebrating could be hard. I have been sick, busy and desperately trying to find my holiday spirit.
I’m happy. I am grateful. I am having a very good life, actually. I just am not excited about the holidays. I want to find a neutral place to be able to enjoy the music, decorating, gift-ing, food and people. Oh my dear Lord, the people. There are so many of them. No offense, of course.
Starting with Thanksgiving…it’s still my favorite holiday. But it used to be my holiday: Planning the menu, inviting/including loved ones, preparing our home. Blah Blah Blah
Now, just thinking about all of that makes me tired. Ha!
Maybe I’m too old (but I don’t really think that’s true). My challenge is to find a way to appreciate the wonderful bits and pieces of the festive season – that will make up my holiday season.
I have spirit. Yes I do. I have spirit. How ’bout you?
(i can do this)
Postscript: I did it…and pretty darn well.The Empire State Building on Christmas Eve was a highlight, I must say. And…
It was still harder than I think it should be. I am realizing as I type this that it was hard because I tried to make it wonderful for everyone else – instead of inviting everyone to help make it wonderful, festive and special together. Well, ain’t that a bitch?
Please dear Universe, help me to learn from this and allow the holidays to make themselves next year. Love, R
