Oh My God – I’m so angry. Oh My God – I’m so hurt. Oh My God – I’m so afraid.
I am so certain. I am so right. I am so passionate. I am so hate-filled.
Oh My God – I am so wrong.
Fire and ice is the feeling I live with when I know what is best but I want to do what I used to do. What is best to practice the principles of Honesty, Integrity, Humility, Courage, Willingness, Forgiveness and Love in all of my affairs.
My emotions cry out for revenge, punishment and anger. My rage tells me they are horrible, stupid and evil. My practice reminds me they are breaking the law and I am not a law enforcement officer. My practice tells me that they, like me, love and are loved, are afraid to be wrong, do not always believe they are enough, sometimes feel less than and do not want to be vulnerable to the hate of others; like me, I know they do not always understand all aspects of a situation; Desperately want to feel in control; Do not always think for themselves – or think before they act or speak.
And now, because of their choices, I must choose to fight my desire to hate them, to minimize them, to limit their freedom and make them pay. I must make a different choice, because those are the reasons they did what they did…Oh my God, I am like them – and different.
Oh My God – I’m so human.
And so are they.
And so it is.
