As we’re nearing the end of this fucking year…I already know that Jan 1 is going to feel oddly just like Dec 31. I know that man-made constructs do not hold sway over organic processes like grief, marriage, and healing. I also know my deepest pools of anger are easily stirred when someone tells me, …
To Be New – Stay Woke
“I’m requiring a different level of consciousness of myself doing something very ordinary. I define that as a state of being more aware, being more awake to the reality I likely do not pay that much attention to on any given day. In today’s vernacular, I’m trying to be live woke.”
The Daughter’s Wound
My greatest challenge in this never-ending healing process is to allow the dreams and disappointments of that little girl to be processed and released by the grown ass woman I’ve become.
Honesty
“You know what I call someone who doesn’t tell me the whole truth?” I leaned in, as if my friend, Laura, was about to share the secret to maneuvering the world! She continued: “A LIAR!”
teaching finding joy
I think the most terrifying thing for a teacher must be the moment between giving everything they have to give and the student’s realization or incorporation of the new information or understanding. I have been a student of spiritual principles and practices for nearly 4 decades, at this writing. Throughout there have been moments of …
What do you mean, it’s August?
On March 11 of this year we were planning a birthday party for my husband (13th) I had hired someone to Spring clean the house; off to the doctor for my regular blood draw to check my thyroid – then home to wrap gifts, order the cakes, etc. etc. etc. Except as I was leaving …
How to be a Man
When she was 12 and staying with us for several weeks that summer, she asked me if she could get a haircut. She wanted a big change – “Cut it all off!” she said. I asked her to pick some photos, “so we can show the stylist what you’re looking for”. The pictures were not …
What Will I Need When I’m Old?
My mom is 78 and lives with my husband and me. She is almost independent – but has some physical issues (COPD and peripheral neuropathy primarily) that makes living with us is better for her (and my peace of mind) than her living alone. She struggles with things that continue to surprise to me. I …
Quarantine – Chill
I’ve learned that change is not painful – resistance to change is painful. So, in fact, this pain is self-inflicted. Ain’t that a bitch?!
Catching up…
Hey! I have missed you. I have come to care about you; feel like I owe you updates and thoughts and loves and challenges and frustrations and celebrations. Except I also feel like I must add good punctuation, grammar and be free of typos, so it’s not the easy going relationship I sometimes think it …