Hey! I have missed you. I have come to care about you; feel like I owe you updates and thoughts and loves and challenges and frustrations and celebrations. Except I also feel like I must add good punctuation, grammar and be free of typos, so it’s not the easy going relationship I sometimes think it should be. LOL or Ha Ha Ha or whatever…
Anyway, we’re nearing the end of the first month of 2020 – I cannot believe I am still alive. In the ’70s, when I imagined the 21st century, I honestly didn’t imagine making it much past 2002 – but then I thought 45 years was near death!
Recently, I have been sharing and teaching that my job is to stay in the moment and be in service. I have come to understand that to spend a measured amount of time wishing for things to have been different is self-centered.
Once I heard a gentleman say:
“Forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past”
and my life was forever changed. It drove home the suggestion that forgiveness is for ourselves, not for the other person. Then I understood that lack of forgiveness leaves me stuck in my past – always wishing things had been different; wishing I had been different, he/she/it had behaved differently…that I had known what it was impossible for me to know and that they had offered what they did not have to give.
And suddenly, today is far more exciting! Exciting because I know what I know and I am willing to accept that it’s ok not to know everything; that to be curious only adds to my adventure!
I forgive myself and I greet today as another opportunity to grow, learn and celebrate.
Can you forgive me?
